to worry

the phone call i received tonight only added to my already escalating worry...
'mama, this is serious'

this hurricane terrifies. i'm worried for everyone absolutely.
but my youngest is alone with only one coworker, at work, and they are right in it's path.
she lives in nyc.

when the warnings began a couple of days ago i called her,
please pay attention, don't ride your bike or the subway either
(this was before we knew they would be closed down).

and don't go into work. you need to stay at home where you'll be safe.
that was what i asked of her. but her work insisted they stay open.
that's what she told me. and she is always doing what they ask, she
can't afford to lose her job.

so she's in lower manhattan, not able to get back home now to brooklyn
the subways are closed and the bridges too. she said it's like a ghost town,
no one is out. businesses are closed and some are boarded up.
she has plans now to stay with friends several blocks away from her work.
when she gets off, which will be in a few more hours, when the storm is
supposed to hit manhattan full force.

to say i'm not worried would be untrue. i feel anxiety and fear
this photo is one i took when my girl left for ny
and this poem is one that usually calms every time i read it, they both usually calm
i wish they would tonight.

just thinking about what i'd like to say to the the owners of this bowery bar,
hey, my fear just turned into full blown anger.